I’m working on rebranding this page so, please bear with me. Please accept this excerpt from my first post “The Day I Broke Up With My Mom,” as a small introduction.
My name is Precious.
I’m the mother of three beautiful children.
I am the wife of a U.S. Army Veteran who suffers from Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and Psychosis.
I also have bipolar disorder, complex PTSD and general anxiety disorder.
My step-dad recently died.
I grew up in a violent home and after we escaped, I spent the rest of my childhood and my formidable teen years with only my mom.
I also grew up in a cult (you’ll see how important “the church,” as I like to call it, plays into the abuse in my life).
My life has been a roller-coaster, especially the last decade alone.
Because of trauma, I tend to isolate myself and I don’t really tell people much about me.
I hold that false belief that my traumas don’t matter. That other people have it worse, and that my experiences aren’t important. (In the next few weeks, I’ll share some stories of my childhood that will explain this toxic inner voice I always carry.)
And it was only recently when I started to open up in private support groups that I realize how much my story resonates with people, and why it’s so important to remind people who isolate themselves like I do — because they’re afraid of being hurt — to remind them that they matter, their story matters, and that things do get better.
I know it is a little bit heavy for a first post but just to dip your feet into some of the concepts that I have introduced you to, I’m embedding a Facebook Watch video by Red Table Talk with one of my idols, Dr. Ramani Durvasula.
Discovering her body of work was a pivotal moment for me. It was her work on social media that really helped me recognize, label and then face the traumas that shaped who I am today.
And more importantly, to finally find the strength to begin healing.
I hope this video resonates with you as much as it resonated with me. And that you find it as helpful as I did.
Lastly, don’t get mad at me if you see Dr. Ramani all over this blog because I love her. I think her work saves lives.