#BringJasonHome · Being A Mom · Health & Wellness · Love & Marriage · Mental Health · Mompreneur · Ovarian Cancer · Religion & Spirituality · Veteran Affairs

Music, poetry, gratitude and hell…

I wrote this the other day, and it pretty much sums up the point I want to make…

Mic drop.

I can end this post now.

Just kidding…

Continue reading “Music, poetry, gratitude and hell…”

Health & Wellness · Ovarian Cancer

September is Ovarian Cancer Awareness Month

My mom is a 4+ year Stage IV Ovarian Cancer survivor! So… I always like to talk about how she was diagnosed because I think it’s important to raise awareness. Lastly, don’t forget to BEAT IT!


Continue reading “September is Ovarian Cancer Awareness Month”

Health & Wellness · Mental Health · Veteran Affairs

A veteran’s wife deserves respect, too!

tackle it

It’s been almost 2 months since I’ve posted anything meaningful.

A lot of it has to do with feeling detached and emotionally numb.

That’s not to say I don’t feel anything. I cycle through extreme joy, extreme sorrow and then extreme NOTHINGNESS.

Sometimes, I think that I feel so much that there’s a switch that my brain turns off for me. My physical body just isn’t allowing things to set in completely.

It’s very Vampire Diaries.

Continue reading “A veteran’s wife deserves respect, too!”

#BringJasonHome · Health & Wellness · Love & Marriage · Mental Health · Religion & Spirituality

Soul searching…


There’s something very awkward about having a public persona.

We live in a world where people Google you after you first meet. They make assumptions about you and know tidbits about your life that are most likely, way out of context.

The publicity was necessary. I wanted to make sure Jason didn’t go to prison.

There’s a lot of things that can’t be put on the record or the judge won’t allow it to be on the record. It was important to me that our story be told so Jason could get the help he needed.

I advocated so hard and so fiercely that it took a lot from me. Continue reading “Soul searching…”

Health & Wellness · Ovarian Cancer

Four years ago today… #LadyBalls


Four years ago today, I took my mom to the Sunnybrook Hospital emergency room for what I suspected was a stroke.

It turned out, she had a stroke, likely as a complication of Stage IV #OvarianCancer. Two major debulking surgeries, bilateral nephrostomy bags inserted and removed, put into palliative care, removed from palliative care, no chemo, over a month of radiation treatments and one recurrence later, she’s still with us. Continue reading “Four years ago today… #LadyBalls”

365: Daily Journaling · Being A Mom · Health & Wellness

365: What 3 things do you keep doing, even though they don’t serve you at all?



I don’t eat well — or at all, for that matter.

I know I don’t eat enough and that means I don’t eat well.

When I wake up in the morning, I have just enough time to dress and feed the kids, before I have to head out the door and drop them off at school, etc.

When asked to choose between brewing coffee and making food, I brew coffee.

“But, Precious, just eat what the kids are eating!” Continue reading “365: What 3 things do you keep doing, even though they don’t serve you at all?”

Health & Wellness

I Jump Rope For my Grandpa

It’s that time of year again!

My eldest daughter is jumping rope in memory of her Grandpa. This is her second year participating. Please visit her personal Heart & Stroke Foundation page (http://support.heartandstroke.ca/goto/IJumpForMyGrandpa) or read her heartfelt letter below:

Even though Jump Rope for Heart is focused on encouraging kids to get active, it’s a Heart & Stroke Foundation initiative — an organization that was close to my grandpa’s heart.

Heart & Stroke first entered my grandpa’s life when his eldest daughter was born prematurely. I don’t think he ever realized that they would be a part of his life when he suffered a massive stroke in 2012. While he was in hospital in a coma for 8 months, my grandma (his wife), also had multiple strokes and once again, Heart & Stroke came back into our lives. My stepdad passed away in August 2013 but every year, I jump rope in his memory.

Last year, I raised $260, that was $110 more than my goal of $150. I know our deadline is less than 2 weeks away, but I’m hoping to surpass what I raised last year. Help me by making a donation today!

Every seven minutes in Canada, heart disease or stroke takes another life. And another 1.6 million survivors are living with the effects of these devastating diseases. With your help, we’re that much closer to living lives free of heart disease and stroke.

Please help me reach my fundraising goal by making a donation to my personal fundraising page today.

Together, we can make tomorrow healthier for the world.


Alanna (and the entire Lesko family)

#BringJasonHome · Being A Mom · Health & Wellness · Love & Marriage · Mental Health


From GoFundMe: If you haven’t heard by now, Jason was found Not Guilty by Reason of Insanity on two counts, a third one was dismissed. He was ordered to be hospitalized until doctors feel he’s safe for release into the community. The Toronto Star (http://bit.ly/2q420sv) and CityNews (see below) did a follow-up.

I’m confident he can start the process of transitioning back into the community sooner, rather than later. He’s doing really well on his meds.

In many ways, hospitalization is good news. But, it’s also terrible news because it means that The State could be in our lives for the next 10.5 years, and it means we’ll be apart for at least the next 6 months, as his first assessment likely won’t be until October. (The psychiatrist at the hearing said she felt it was important Jason be near his family and advocated for him to be moved closer to home. I’m glad we got that on the record but, I’m pessimistic that the State would be willing to lose jurisdiction over the case.)

I’ve always been critical of the fact that despite how sick Jason was, he was constantly taken back and forth between the hospital and jail. He spent 116 days in custody, most of that time in county lock-up. After the trial, he had to wait in jail for a bed at the hospital. Also, his thyroid issues have remained largely ignored — which could actually be fatal if left untreated. Continue reading “UPDATE: Jason is NOT GUILTY”

#BringJasonHome · Health & Wellness · Mental Health

An open letter to the Ontario Minister of Health

I wrote this on Aug. 1, 2016. It was published on my anonymous blog. I Tweeted it at Dr. Eric Hoskins. Of course, HE NEVER RESPONDED. This is VERBATIM. I haven’t changed this. This was a whole FOUR MONTHS before my husband went missing AGAIN and wound up getting arrested in Ohio. Continue reading “An open letter to the Ontario Minister of Health”